How are you? I am fine. No, really, I am fine. You may not know it by the multitude of tests I have endured at the hands of the medical professionals recently, but yes, I am fine.
The oddessy began last September with what I identified as a gall bladder attack. Doubled over in breathless pain - whew! Fifteen minutes later finally able to stand-up and left with a shadow of the pain. Huh...well I'll just wait and see.
A month later the pain persists so I see my doc. She tells me I must have indigestion - wow really? So my stomach is now located under the right lower side of my ribcage? That's odd, I wonder when it moved?
We started with an x-ray -negative. Ultrasound - negative...months go by, pain continues...take Prilosec, take Prilosec and Pepcid, no, no take 2 Prilosec's twice a day and skip the Pepcid, that was a dumb says new G.I. doc. Ok. I comply, and comply and comply with zero results.
Let's give you an endoscopy and get to the bottom of this, let's also give you a colonoscopy while where at it, you know since you're over 50 - fancy.
Oh wait! How about a CT scan just for kicks? CT-scan-negative oh but they did find an ovarian cyst! Jeeze...yes, I'm extra tired of being poked, giving blood and basically being examined so thoroughly!
Today I remembered...these folks are "practicing medicine". Practice, yes they practice because - hey - guess what? We are individuals! We all feel things differently! Wow what a concept! My pain and your pain are different! The issue does not lie in our perception of pain. The issue is-are we being heard? I lost count of how many times I relayed my symptoms and location of pain, where it originates and radiates to only to be told I have indigestion.
The wise thing for me to do now is stop. Stop this machine that does not listen, that is not interested in variables, that wants to move me through and stamp me "Healthy".
I decided today that Kaiser Permanente does not decide whether I am healthy or not, I do. Damn it...I do. So for today, and possibly for tomorrow, I will pretend that I have no symptoms. I am happy, I am healthy, and by God, I am going to finish this blog and spend the weekend happily in my very happy life.